There’s really no point in judging art. The artist isn’t going to change his/her view to fit your idea of good art no matter what you tell them. I guess that applies to religion too though, and politics. It makes me personally feel better about myself when I sit back and respect someone else’s opinion or view on a subject instead of just blatantly saying “you’re wrong, I’m right and if I don’t tell you that I’m right then that somehow makes me feel less right.”
It’s odd laying here on my bed, looking at the posters and random shit my friends and I wrote and drew on the walls realizing that someday I will have to pack up all of those posters and paint over all of those pictures. It isn’t sad, just… odd.
I pictured my high school experience to be a lot different in my head before I got here. I pictured the high school lovebirds scenario and the parties and the whole college thing. It turned out that any kind of love towards a girl that I’ve ever had has been unrequited (please, spare the tears, I’m an extremely happy person haha), I hate parties, and I’m not going to college. Weird. Turned out to be on the other side of the spectrum and in retrospect, I’m relieved to say it didn’t happen the way that I expected it too.
The universe is a large thing, much larger than I can possibly imagine. I’m glad that I am lucky enough to feel that the ever-expanding universe is complying with my positive energy and helping me to reach my most insane goals. I don’t know what’s going on up there in the sky, but I feel blessed by it nonetheless.
I need to sit down with Pharrell, Kevin Parker, Kanye, Dave Chappelle, Jay Z, Kendrick Lamar, Chaz Bundick, Will Ferrell, Leonardo DiCaprio, Frank Ocean, Q-Tip, Wes Anderson, Quentin Tarantino, and RZA individually. I feel like each of those conversations will be amazing.
I’m ready to fight. I’m going to end up changing culture and possibly changing the world and I’m ready to fight in order to get there.
I will end up being known as one of the most versatile, proactive, and important creators on Earth.
This doesn’t change that I am a student though, I’m still in preschool when it comes to experiences, hell I’m probably not even in preschool experience-wise. I’m like a 3 day old.
My hunger to learn and build is what will help me grow as it has helped me to grow immensely already. My first steps will be as memorable and enjoyable as my final steps and I will hopefully inspire an incredibly insurmountable population of beautiful human beings just like you.
If you aren’t gonna dream big and if you aren’t going to aim to change the world and if you aren’t going to aim to be the best that you can impossibly become then I strongly suggest that you get a little introspective for a minute and then change your viewpoint.
I embrace the label. After all, who else my age spends most of their time alone in their room working on projects? Not many. Not many around here at least. Taunton has been the most boring place to me since Sophomore year and I’m not sure if it’s the scenery, the people, or the need for a daily routine that school has supplied me with that has eaten away at my brain these past couple years. I’m tired of waiting to leave.
I’m putting a lot into this album too, I’m excited to release it but it needs to be perfect to me first which may take a little time. That’s it.
Also thank you to everyone who has been listening and supporting me this past year, a lot of great opportunities have come my way and the love is mutual seriously. If it were not for you I would not be in the situations that I am in now so thank you infinitely for all of your love and support.
Recently I have been creating many things because that is all I really want to do. These creations range from designs for the merchandise for Weirdo, my second album, to instrumentals that I would like to have my musical heroes on in the future. I find some of these creations tough to be 100% happy with because although the designs are sick to me and the instrumentals sound cool as fuck, my resources are limited so I am not able to produce things of the highest caliber.
This is my recent struggle. It is funny though because I have another thought pattern that flutters into existence after I drag myself through the “if I just had more shit” mind state, reminding me that maybe it is a good thing that my resources are limited. Sure I don’t have an MPC yet or a sweet analog synthesizer or the best quality fabric to print designs on, but I have the imagination to maneuver myself around these obstacles and create the sounds myself that an MPC or a synthesizer would help me create.
Also, my patience has become much stronger because I have no other option than to be patient with myself and send the positive energy into the Universe, knowing that it will return the favor.
SO, if you are in a creative struggle similar to mine just remember that it may not actually be a struggle, it may just be that you are looking at the growth of your patience and imagination and only seeing the negative in it.